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Its been so long yet again.

Let me talk about yesterday. I had a crazy thursday. Yeah indeed.

I planned a lunch with another two friends, meeting at mushroom. We went to Tampines Central for our lunch, deciding to go to KFC! I ate that Variety Value Meal. Its kinda ok? Still acceptable though.

After which, I begged them to accompany me till 3, as its still way too early. 1.52 pm. So, I decided to go and catch that bus 15 with them. I had no choice, but to wait for the bus 58, to go for my driving lesson number 10. I called my mum to ask if she was at home, as I didn't bring my keys. "Ask Alica" said Derek. Alica Keys. Yeah thats it. My mum was at home. I went to wait for bus 15 though stupid. Luckly 21 came first to save me from that joke. Although its too late.

I went home. 15 mins later, my mum ask me why I'm not going out yet? I just came back. OMG! Hahas.

I took taxi there. The fare is usually $8.40, but this time round, its cheaper. $7.90. I couldn't control myself, but speed to 60 or 70km/h before my instructor ask me to control my speed. He repeated that for millions of times!

My lesson ends, I am suppose to park the car at the correct place. This time round, a traffic jam in the circuit! Thats interesting. The traffic jam caused by a big big lorry, was way too long to imagine. As if we are buying the golden tickets to Charlie's Chocolate Factory. My instructor couldn't tahan, so he horned. The problem is solved! YIPPEE!!

I went to meet my parents for dinner after the lesson, suprise to see my Engine Fund Tutor near my house, what a shock!

Wahaha we ate Curry Fish Head! YUMMY!

The end of the crazy Thursday blockbluster.

I am feeling so bored. I don't know what to do. There's no one I can chat to and there's no one I can go out with.

I am just lazing around,
Sitting on the nice, comfort chair.
Starring at the computer,
Not knowing what I should do.

Go out alone?
No there is no place I can go.
Play games?
No I had played those games all day long.

There's really nothing I can do,
But just sitting down and think what I should do.
This has wasted my days over and over,
Knowing that this wouldn't bring me too far too!

By ChinSian

Thinking why I am going crazy? LOLS!

Well, its been so boring nowadays, that I am almost going crazy soon. Failing to find a job is one thing. Getting hard to find friends to go out with is another thing. Choh Wai's reading of messages angers me.

Let me talk about my first problem. I have been finding a suitable job but failed. I went to 4 agencies of Kelly Services in Tampines, JMC Corporation in Peninsular Plaza and Recruit Express In Ngee Ann City and today, I went to Recruit Express in Tampines. I couldn't find a job. I cancelled a job that I have gotten a few weeks ago. Energie Eyecare. Pay is good. However, it seems difficult to sell a product of $680. And what's more? I got to move around Singapore not knowing where is my next location. So i quit after going for two sessions of training.

Derek and Firdaus have been crazy about playing frisbee, i went once. But felt its nothing much. Especially when Benny play a while don't want play then watch us, spoiling the plans. I couldn't find them out. Who am I going to go out with? I only have one good friend from primary school, Ka Jun, to go out with.

 

Choh Wai invited me to his company's event buffet on Wednesday. I at first told him ok, then an hour or so later, I told him that I don't know if I will be going or not and that I will confirm with him on thursday. On Thursday, yesterday I told him that I'm not going. Today, he said the ticket is out. I said okok, I will pay you. Then, I think through, its not my fault after all. And decided to sms him that I am not going to pay for his own fault.    =(

The day I will never forget indeed, its the graduation night. Photos can be seen at the side. =)

I don't know for what Roy and I meet so early. Well, insane? Hahas. I saw Randal on the way to meet Roy at Pasir Ris MRT Station. He said WeiJie says he confirm Mr Siglap, at least top 10. Randal told me to convey some funny and weird messages that is to tell him that he confirm not even top 10 and ask me to remind him to buy 2 red wine. WeiJie says he going to buy and off he goes, coming back empty-handedly.

3.30pm, 14 November 2007. Yes, that is the time I met Roy when the Graduation Night starts at 6.30pm. Weird, as we reach Bugis, deciding to alight and have a walk around. I was wondering why on earth we went so early for? Nicholas called me 3 times, but I missed it, seems unable to hear any phone ringing, covered by the sounds of the train moving. BOMBOMBOM! It goes. I called Nicholas, thinking that he and WeiJie are in Bugis at that point of time. Little did I expect them to be in Tampines Mall. My jaw literally dropped to basement 2.  We were at the Nation Library Board (NLB), wondering off Bugis when we decided to shop around Bugis. Weird?

We walked and found our way to IT Funan Mall. In we went, walking around with no idea what to do. In the end, I went for a bowl of minced meat noodle there as I did not had my lunch. And we went to Challenger, ending up playing games there. 6pm, We realised that time flies so fast, without any notification.

I bought a comb at Watson, knowing my hair went haywired.

We asked people around where Swissotel The Stamford actually was. Roy asked blindly around without getting an answer. I told him to look for the right person and said watch me. I asked a man crossing the road, at the side of the road, I asked him. OH MY GOD! I asked any guy, who politely answered me, telling us numerous times where it was, making sure we got it right. We were thankful to him, this time round. That's what I meant by asking the right person.
We went there, taking photos around. Mdm Zubaidah was shocked to see my hair dyed.

HAHAS.

I enjoyed it. I was sabohed by those round the table I was sitting in. They shouted, "YES AH! CHINSIAN!" when the last prize for the lucky draw came, I never win though. They tried many times, everyone looked at us, as we burst into laughter. 2 Small cakes for Barnabus. His birthday!  AH HAHA. He won a prize in the lucky draw *CLAPCLAP*

I enjoyed the graduation video for our class, done by DEREK! MANONAL FILM our class joke, by Justin.

 

  
 

The best video.

Next, the video done by Ms Lim and Mdm Zudaidah. I was shocked where they dug the cute photo of me during sec 2 CCA Day for sec 1s to choose cca. THE HAPPY ONE they put.

We were suppose to dance in steps given by Mr Tharmen, misunderstood gone slowly, bits by bits. I was ok again with Derek and Firdaus, the best gift of the night. We ended in free dance, going up the stage. We surrounded Firdaus in circles, jumping round him, Too fast, I lost my balance, fell I went. Shafiq fell onto me. Hahas. I had fun  though. We went home at 11.30pm, BENNY, ROY, ME and FIRDAUS sat at the back of Derek's mum's car. SQUEEZE!

I had fun. =)

What can I do when friends walk in and out all they want at anytime? I can do nothing but allow them to do so. I am always the one who goes up and say sorry even though most of the time its not my fault. What can I really do? My two best friends got angry over trival matter.

Maybe I am really wrong but all they can do is to think deeper and understand how I feel. It seems that there is no place for me to go to and noone to go to throw out all my feelings. After all, they are never willing to share their problems with me and never willing to lend me a listening ear. It seems the almost the whole world is against me. What have I really done?

They doesn't want to go for a job interview with me first before accompanying me to buy clothes for the graduation night. All I do is find my primary school best friend to go together. I accompany him and of course I cannot throw him aside. I told them early that its cancelled 4 to 5 hours earlier. What Derek done to me before I still remember, he suddenly cancelled the outings before when I already reach the place. I said never mind and proceeded alone.

What have they done to me? Ignore me and behave differently. Its indeed not worth while to have done so much yet get this from them. I decided to walk out of their life from now.

I still have two best friends after all. :)

Hi. Yesterday, Derek said meet 2.10pm, when its already 2pm! WAH! I prepared after watching VCD, prepared and off i go, i reached at 2.15pm! Haha. SUPER!

 

We went, a pass-byer gave us wrong direction. Luckily we asked again after walking away from the SPH. We finally found the place.

 

Its a very funny course.

 

Derek got saboh by Mr Joe, after he's being discovered of looking at a chiobu . Luckily, I was discovered. *Laugh*

Hi. erm, class bowling over long ago. Very long never update le.

I still remember that i at first do not feel like going for the bowling at all. Mdm Zubaidah says just try. I tried, at first nervous. Second time I feel better. As a beginner, I only manage to hit the pins only in my fifth try. My first round, I got 42 points. Second round, 64 points.

I gotten the " Most Improved Bowler". My group also gotten the highest point. Looking forward for term 3 class bowling.

On the way home, We saw Ayuni. Where Firdaus, Derek and me alighted with her! Haha. We gone so HIGH!

 

Next time, I upload the pictures! Haha. I promise..

Last time, when i was in primary school, i had a lot of friends. Its really so much that I now need sometimes to recall their names except some. However, I still know their my friends. Of course some in my class now, I have known since primary school, one of them I know him since primary 1! Now, I am losing good friends even though some might still be at the same school as I do. I am used to loneliness. When I am secondary 1, I am in group of six. Now, they left school, some going to ITE, some going to Polytechnic, left with another one. We had tons of quarrelling that some have not been resolve. However, I am ok with all of them! Haha. I miss them now, as I feel so lonely in school. The amount of words I use in school has decrease tremendously!

 

This is the only place for me to throw my feelings at! Well, being the only child, I might get all I want. However, it makes me feel lonely. I now do not know who chat with even in MSN! Its not a good feeling. I start to have bad temper, frustrated with small matters. However, calm down fast, and regret fast.

 

It may sounds that I am so pitiful. However, I treat this as a test from the god, to success and treasure people around me. Right? Willing to be my good friend number 2? Tell me. I do not force. If you do not want, I am strong enough. Tell me what kind of person I am, honestly. OK? Looking forward to your comments!

Hi. Singapore has won the first leg of the ASEAN Championship 2007. People may say its luck as the referee made a wrong decision. However, have you put yourself into the referee shoes? At his view, he saw the Thai player behind Noh Alam Shah. They fell down together. If you were the referee, will you give him a yellow card and award the opposition team the penalty? I will. The referee is ver firm with his decision. Thailand played with falling down so often, sometimes, fall down when the Singapore player never even touch them at all. The referee have given other yellow card which is harsh.

Thailand played well in the second half, falling down not so often, long distance shot, through ball. Their goal is a beauty. A great goal. The fans fought twice. Thailand walk out. I feel Thailand is very wrong to walk out, not because they are playing against Singapore. If Singapore were to do that, I will still say the same thing. Singapore did well to stand aside. Fahrudin did well to ignore distraction, shooting well to score. A nice penalty.

Singapore is a good side. I had went for the semi-final,second leg at the National Stadium. Its great! I was sitting beside the media, got Aide signature on the poster. Kallang just roar! I love to be there, my first time watching Singapore play live there. The first time was to watch our school playing for the 'B' division final which we won by penalty after a 1-1 draw. Exactly same. And when we board the bus, it start to drizzle. Same as that day. Haha. LUCK? I do not know. You tell me what it is. OK? Leave other comments too. Thanks.

Hi. Sorry for the super late entry. I have been lazy, I admit. Haha. I will be back soon! Catch me with the new entry soon!

"Walking alone" is the scariest thing to anyone on earth. Here, the "walking alone" means loneliness. Well, it is common. However, do you know how it feels to be walking down alone? I do.

 

Can you imagine walking down a dark street alone? Its freaking quiet and scary. You might not feel the scariness but instead you feel the sadness. Does it sounds sad and sort of bad? Yes, but think carefully and look around. There will be surely people around you supporting you. Some do it quietly, hinting you. While others, advice, cheer and push you higher.

 

Why does you feel you are "walking alone"? Well, it might be you feel that people are insulting you, looking down on you and many other bad things. However, think first. Do other people experience all these before? YES! Of course everyone experience it before.

 

You just remember something. That is no one is perfect and keep on improving yourself. And your family and best friends is always around you. You will never ever walk alone. Try talking to someone. It works! I tried. Of course find someone who is trustworthy and willing to listen to you. Everyone experience low point/s in their lives. However, remember to stand up and continue walking after falling down. GOODLUCK!

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